Distraction can come from an origin that's worth looking at first. While I was working on my own at university, I felt I could not focus, but then I found out that's not even the point. I was putting up walls against my own thoughts instead of giving them the space they need to become less of a flood, more of a creativity stream I can sit on.
Well. When I was at home at that time, I could not relax, so I looked online and found mindfulness which slowly made me more aware of what I was doing to my brain. Torturing it with science questions on a narrow line to follow, often getting stuck. I was pushing back every idea beyond work as if that was a rule I had signed on. Thoughts of hunger, the weather, or what others were doing: disallowed.
Learned to let go on the way back home, had to because of a headache... and then found out it was good to sneak into other research topics to widen my thinking.
Distraction can come from an origin that's worth looking at first. While I was working on my own at university, I felt I could not focus, but then I found out that's not even the point. I was putting up walls against my own thoughts instead of giving them the space they need to become less of a flood, more of a creativity stream I can sit on.
Thanks for sharing this! So curious how you discovered that that was what was happening?
Well. When I was at home at that time, I could not relax, so I looked online and found mindfulness which slowly made me more aware of what I was doing to my brain. Torturing it with science questions on a narrow line to follow, often getting stuck. I was pushing back every idea beyond work as if that was a rule I had signed on. Thoughts of hunger, the weather, or what others were doing: disallowed.
Learned to let go on the way back home, had to because of a headache... and then found out it was good to sneak into other research topics to widen my thinking.
On a side note, it's pretty absurd that this is valid english: "that that was what was"
I apologize to the world for writing that in the original comment, but I blame english for allowing it.
Amazing that you were able to learn more about yourself and break free from a pattern that wasn't serving you!
A brilliant noticing by a brilliant coach.